72:90 :: Human Tendencies

yesterday(4.28.09) i had to pick up this perscription from my doctor... she told me that it would be harsh on my tummy and to eat before i take it &. if i could take it before bed. so i made a mad dash to Target bcuz they had Lean/Hotpockets on sale 4 for $8 &. went &. picked up an old friend... well what the doctor should've told me was take these pills at a time when you wont be doing anything put breathing bcuz youre going to be in some SERIOUS pain... 
As im taking my amigo home my stomach starts to hurt, but i figure i could make it home before it got too bad... nope.! didnt happen. i was like 5 minutes away from my house before i had to pull over and take and "spit" well thats what i THOUGHT it was and at first i did JUST spit.!! but then my stomach got the best of my and that Lean Pocket decided it didnt want to sit well &. everything just came up. now as all of this is going i noticed a white doge stratus driving by what i didnt notice that the car turned around.!
while i was preparing to gurdy up and drive the last 5 minutes home the stratus pulls up next to me and a woman asks me to roll down my window, so i follow though she proceeds to ask me, "if im okay.?" and i explain that its just my medicine making me a little ill and that i was okay. she then asked if i was sure and if "i needed to go to the hospital or anything.?" and i again said i was fine, and that i was "right down the street from my house." 
once i got home &. was safe in my bed i went over everything in my head &. the woman in the stratus was the one thing that brought a smile to my face... it was a re assuring feeling to know that no matter how mean people get, no matter how selfish the world is, or how me me me people are there are still some people out there that are human. with human feelings and emotions. humans that still know right from wrong &. see the clear difference between good &. evil... so thank you to the woman in the white Doge Stratus where ever you are for stopping what you were doing to make sure i was okay.!

66:90 :: over it...

im soooooooo tired of NOT seeing my bestfriend idk what ot do with myself.!! & thats all im going to say about that.!!!

54:90 :: OH NO.!

uggggh.! why you have to leave the way you did.? and why did i have to be soo nosey.? now here i am back to the Schae from October 2008... "out of sight out of mind" my ass.!! its NOT true what so ever... dont you understand how much i missed you &. how unfair all of this was.?  leaving without an explanation... in WHAT world is that okay.? who does that, and is able to live with it like it doesnt hurt somewhat.... didnt you get it.? im different, special, unique, fun.! and instead i was passed off as if i was typical, normal, or average... ugggh.!! i hate the way i feel about you and this situation, i hate that i didnt get to say anything about the way things happend, i hate how HARD it was to pretend like i didnt care anymore, and even more i hate how i feel now....now that you're around. i wont say back because you will never be back, the route you took to leave was on a one way street, a choice again made by you not me... typically id dance when my feelings &. emotions get the best of me... but w. you.? youre different, &. i cant deal with this... all i want to do is lay in my bed &. let my mind consume me with emotion... but i cant let myslef go back there, not again, not now, i have to much going on to walk around like a zombie for another 2 months.!! &. i could lie &. say i never want to talk to you again, but i couldnt stop talking to you if i tried... now im just here sleepless, thoughts racing, &. doe eyes full of tears... so now what.?