uggggh.! why you have to leave the way you did.? and why did i have to be soo nosey.? now here i am back to the Schae from October 2008... "out of sight out of mind" my ass.!! its NOT true what so ever... dont you understand how much i missed you &. how unfair all of this was.? leaving without an explanation... in WHAT world is that okay.? who does that, and is able to live with it like it doesnt hurt somewhat.... didnt you get it.? im different, special, unique, fun.! and instead i was passed off as if i was typical, normal, or average... ugggh.!! i hate the way i feel about you and this situation, i hate that i didnt get to say anything about the way things happend, i hate how HARD it was to pretend like i didnt care anymore, and even more i hate how i feel now....now that you're around. i wont say back because you will never be back, the route you took to leave was on a one way street, a choice again made by you not me... typically id dance when my feelings &. emotions get the best of me... but w. you.? youre different, &. i cant deal with this... all i want to do is lay in my bed &. let my mind consume me with emotion... but i cant let myslef go back there, not again, not now, i have to much going on to walk around like a zombie for another 2 months.!! &. i could lie &. say i never want to talk to you again, but i couldnt stop talking to you if i tried... now im just here sleepless, thoughts racing, &. doe eyes full of tears... so now what.?
'Scuse me ma'am...we CLEARLY need to catch up.
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